I’m almost there and nowhere near it
Currently I have a inconspicuous post-it notes on my work desk counting down the months till I put in my two weeks and a countdown on my phone till my last day here, 125 days just in case you’re interested. I just have to make it till May, which isn’t that far away, and then all the photo taking adventures and camp fun of the summer begins. With no doubt I am incredibly excited for the potential my Summer holds and even more excited for what my future holds after Summer. After the years of hard work, fighting to get classes at my community college, working full time and going to school full time, pneumonia, and trying to keep up with everything in general is going to pay off come Fall when some lucky University opens its doors to Christianna Loza. Almost there, but yet no where near it. Because I still have to make it through the slow pace of work, oral surgery next week, the admission essay I keep putting off, the admission interview I have in a couple weeks, filling out apps and school starting up again next month. I have so much going on this month before school starts again. And so much more to deal with when the semester starts up again to balance with one more semester of 40 hours of work, night classes, homework, trips and god knows whatever else comes up that’ll leave me at the end back to the routine where I’m gasping for air before finals. Then there’s the “Will they actually accept me?!” voice in the back of my head crying out for fear that all my plans for 2014 will fall through because technically I should have more classes then I actually do. Come the end of the month we’ll find out where I’m headed, but until then I’m excited, fearful, worried, bored, and ready to be there finally.
“The aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things, but their inward significance.”